verbatim et literatim
i spent today alone. i spend to much time by myself and i wonder if i'm really normal. maybe i just like my space and prefer not to have it invaded when i choose. i find myself so far from people i really know and being lost in oblivious thought calms me down. puts my mind at ease.
i've been contemplating going back to my old self - writer of all things in prose and poetry. i somehow feel as though since moving from home, i've lost that connection with my creative self. life has become a constant "crash" moment and i dont reflect on it like i used to. i express myself in written letters and words. unlike speaking your mind out freely, a lot more thought goes into the written process and there's little risk of saying the wrong thing.
i see a lot of faces but i dont hear a lot of voices. i should stick my ears out there and listen and not just watch but see. maybe then i'll be able to take life more verbatim et literatim.
i've been contemplating going back to my old self - writer of all things in prose and poetry. i somehow feel as though since moving from home, i've lost that connection with my creative self. life has become a constant "crash" moment and i dont reflect on it like i used to. i express myself in written letters and words. unlike speaking your mind out freely, a lot more thought goes into the written process and there's little risk of saying the wrong thing.
i see a lot of faces but i dont hear a lot of voices. i should stick my ears out there and listen and not just watch but see. maybe then i'll be able to take life more verbatim et literatim.
it good to be alone at times. that when you settle and take stock of what's going on in your life. being around people all the time kuyadina. i find myself spending hours in my room not really wanting to socialise with people. especially if it's people who i'm not too familar with. so on that note, you're normal.
and what harm will you suffer if you go back to your creative old self? the way i see it, it'll only do you good. you're not writing for anybody's good other than your own. It's an outlet for the daily frustrations of life. that's part of the point of these blogs. its an interesting way to watch your life pass by....
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9:21 pm, January 22, 2006