freshly sharpened pencils...

when one has better things to do in this life, a blog has to suffer. it becomes that secondary thing online with very little significance. i've been occupied with all manner of things which way surpass the cyber realm. B has been so good to me and i can only do my best to reciprocate.

today's a lazy sunday. to make matters worse i'm ultra skint, not a penny to lose (literally!!!). on such a day, i'd probably be at home, gawking at telly, fighting with my pillow or plucking my nose hairs but i'm here with B. ok, i'll admit i am bored to the bone. but really there's no better feeling than being bored with her. my frustrations seem to melt away and even if i just sit there and stare at her, i'll be content because i'll know that there's another soul that's just as sad as i am. being bored alone can drive anyone insane but being bored with someone else takes away that loneliness. i am also happy that i do not feel obliged to create some sham romantic outing just to pass time. B and i will just sit here and watch the clock tick away.

tomorrow lectures begin. i had my full induction on friday with my school of mathematics discussing all things academic. two of my lecturers were pretty inquisitive about my year abroad and were quizzing me about silicon valley. for a good fifteen minutes i felt important. they want to line me up to chat with second years who are considering the american option. i'll chat with anyone, anyday - just gimme the limelight!

i woke up a bit groggy today. i've got the sniffles. sore head, runny nose, irritable throat. today happens to be my last day at work. GREAT!! what a wonderful to say my goodbyes. i'll be remember as the bloke who left them with that weird flu strain from some third world country.

i'm taking my last calls from my tiny cubicle. i've got a long paper trail which i want to kill off and i really don't have the energy. i shall miss the little existence i've had in this big grand company. i shall the free coffee vending machine. i shall miss the free cookies that the middle-aged ladies that love to share with young handsome boys. i shall miss cursing at the two idiots who sit next to me. i shall miss flinging paper clips across the floor and missing that guy's face. i shall miss lunch out by the lake. i shall miss flirting with the admin girls - especially the one who's a qualified masseuse. i shall miss the friday liquid lunches at the student union on campus across the road. hang on, i'm going back to uni. those liquid lunches stay!!

what's next? one more year and this mathematician becomes official.

... called B.

Thus far my blog has been an excuse for me to rant and rant, a platform for me to complain about this sordid life. But this is all set to change. I met a girl called B at a friend's house - her cousin's house. For some supernatural reason she showed a bit of interest in me and couldn't stop interrogating me: about me, where I was from, where I'd been and where I was going. She was charming and charismatic, carried her conversation superbly. She wasn't just talking, she was communicating - an act which this big bad world seems to forget to do. She was good at it, real good and that left a lasting impression on me.

Phone numbers were swopped, text messages sent, phone calls made, dates confirmed. The past couple of weeks have certainly been a whirlwind of fun, fun and just hardcore fun. From days out at Ashton Court riding kiddy trains to dancing to kwaito in Notts to tshisaring meat and vors in the Mids to snakes on a plane at the cinema to just chilling in front of the telly. It almost feels as though I've been given a new lease on life - and that lease is set to last. Things seem pretty much on match - same uni, same hometown (neighbourhood even!) , same age, same height, same language, same graduation year, same..... But we are very different people and I'm on a journey of not only discovering this beautiful person but also a journey of self-discovery into the person I am and the person I am set to become. It is a beautiful thing. I feel content with life right now. It's as though I'm finding an equilibrium - a superhuman feeling of euphoria. And damn it feels good.